 "A Mother's Reckoning A Sunday Book Review by Sue Kebold The New York Times This post is continued on from the previous post. It is an article from The New York Times where you hear the voice of Susan and what she has personally experienced and potentially triumphed over the years.
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After watching the 20/20 interview with Sue Klebold, I felt deeply saddened for all the human pain she had endured over the past 15 years since her son's passing. Her son committed suicide along with his friend Eric Harris who went on a shooting rampage in Colombine high school killing 13 and injuring 21 students.
After this incident, it was Sue who received most of the blame for her 17 years old actions as she was the mother and "she should have seen the warning signs. She should have been a better parent. She should have had better communication." The Colombine community and the world had hundreds of "shoulds" for Sue and even Diane Sawyer(interviewer) had clear judgment on her face for the mother openly and honestly crying before her. The reality is that Sue didn't know a shooting would result from what seemed like your normal teenage behavior. Being a religious woman Sue prayed and prayed for forgiveness over years and years contemplating her own suicide. Sue felt responsible for her the killings of her son and continued to dwell in the loss of these people and what she could have done. When listening to her speak, this was a genuine person, a believer, a woman with good intention, faith, and love for her children. Her eyes were open, providing advice, discipline, asking questions, and providing her unconditional love. A secretive teenager living a separate life behind closed doors is not something a mother can always control or know. A teenager who presents with normal behavior, positive academic achievements and happy in his present self. Mental illness was not discussed in classrooms, hidden behind closed doors, and people dismissed strange behavior as a kid just going through the motions. How could this mother know? While she endured extreme grief, sadness, pain, and scrutiny from others over the years, it was her present self that was the saddest part. She wrote a book, which served as a great cathartic release and education for mothers. Although, over all the time, the prayers, the solitude-she still didn't truly forgive herself. There were ounces of anger and disappointment and sadness that were present in her demeanor, her words, expression, and verbal language. It was a woman who couldn't let go, forgive, and move on and she was torn apart my grief-torn apart by a crime her son made the decision to commit with an extremely mentally troubled boy- Eric Harris. This woman, Sue Klebold, deserves to authentically start over rather than still live in memories and pain. While healing may take a lifetime, there is a big step to forgiveness that can help lift her spirit to happiness rather than a dark cloud taking over her days. Today, my thoughts are with this woman and I pray for her as she deserves to get her life back and find joy. She said her joy was taken away, but.....it can be found again. Keep the faith and live life with a positive hope for a better tomorrow. PCR Our passion is something of pure beauty. It sits inside our soul waiting minutes and hours of our days to be unleashed, to be acknowledged, to be released. It's not something people think about on a daily basis-how to unleash their life's passions rather people are thinking about walking the dog, meeting a deadline, making it on time to a spinning class. While there is nothing wrong with our every routine-is their passion making its way into our daily lives?
Do we feel passionate about work? Passionate about our interpersonal relationships? Passionate about a hobby? A new form of exercise? Trying to cook new foods? Trying out new experiences and facing fears? Passion is defined as, "strong and barley controllable emotion." This definition indicates that a person doesn't have to experience it every moment of everyday, but there is a passion inside all of us to release. It can drive us to commit to our lives tasks, our friends, our work, our hobby's with a bit more spark. It can unleash opportunity within ourselves to grow, to live, to love. Passion should never be underestimated rather one should submit to emotion, to feeling something authentic, and to following passion to positive self-growth. Find Something You are Passionate About Unleash it and Run with It PCR Deepak Chopra
https://www.deepakchopra.com 'Science goes where reality leads it, but what happens when reality itself comes under question? Since the quantum revolution over a century ago, the solid, tangible nature of reality has been undermined. Scientists were faced with three linked mysteries that are only now being seen as inseparably linked: What is the nature of the universe? What is the nature of consciousness? What is the origin of both the universe and consciousness? The era has ended when consciousness and the universe could be treated as separate and unrelated. Once accepted as independent, material reality depends on observation – the “measurement problem” in quantum mechanics. At the same time, mind/consciousness/awareness can no longer be considered epiphenomenal, a complex product of brain processes having no bearing on reality. On the way to making the case for “consciousness first,” the following issues will be considered: Can exploring consciousness through spiritual methodologies lead to some of the same insights as science? Can the conscious observer and ‘self’ be understood through introspection - self awareness, self reflection, transcendence, and conscious choice making and intentional self - observation? Is there a difference between perceptual experience and fundamental reality? Where do consciousness and conscious experience occur? In Vedanta, reality changes as consciousness expands. What brain states in neuroscience correlate with different states of consciousness? Enlightenment or nondual awareness also referred to as liberation (moksha), has been the ultimate goal of life in Vedanta. How does this state of unity bear upon modern science?' http://www.scienceandnonduality.com/ |
AuthorPriscilla CL Raj is a Therapist, Missionary, Writer, English Teacher. She is an enthusiast who is passionately purposeful in her life. Archives
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